Wednesday, November 12, 2014

A Bad Friend

I have been thinking of making this post for awhile, and I just figured I should do it, since I had been thinking about it for months.

I am sitting here in my living room in my very first apartment that I am in by myself, and at times I get lonely.  Now I will not make this post too negative, but I need to clear the air a bit, and I need to apologize. Being lonely is really my own fault... because

 I am a bad friend.

I am horrible at keeping in contact with even my family, and it is worse with my friends.  If you don't live within 10 miles of me, I probably will be rubbish at keeping in contact.  I am bad with the phone, I don't like calling and talking on the phone, I get restless and feel the need to do something, so most of the time I am playing sudoku or playing around on the internet while I am trying to talk to you.  I am sorry.  I am horrible on the phone.  (Although I have recently tried walking while calling people on the phone, but it has only been tested with my Mom so far.)

I TRULY have been so very blessed to live in many different places, and come to love and cherish so many people.  My biggest wish is that I was better at keeping in contact with those I love, or that we could all live in the same town and adventure all the time.  But I know that is not realistic.

I just wanted to let you all know that I do love you, and I do cherish getting to call you a friend.  I am sorry that I don't keep in touch as closely as I want to.  But rest assured I do facebook (or other media outlet) stalk you, and I love when you post pictures of your family's or your vacations, or whatever you are doing.  I love you all, and I count myself blessed that I have been able to learn from you, grow with you, cry with you, and most often laugh with you.  I want to be someone who can be relied on, who can be called in emergencies, or call when they are needed and wanted.  (And yet I hate phones) I want to be someone who has lifelong friends, who is an Aunt to all my friends kids, and who does the holiday cards.  I want to be lifelong friends who vacation together, who get to be old and sassy and still laughing together.

Since moving into my own place I have been facing my single person fear... if something were to happen to me... how long would it be for someone to notice my absence? Since I am so bad at communication, would anyone wonder if that hadn't heard from me for days?

So you see, my need to be a good friend is very selfish.  I want to be loved, and I want to love.  I am sorry I have been so selfish, and I promise to try and improve.  I am grateful for your love and patience.  Thank you for being so wonderful!  Thank you for being my friend.  I can only hope that in the present and future I will be a better friend to you!

Monday, April 28, 2014

I am afraid I have lost April?!?!?!?

Where the heck did April go? I am afraid of how many days I have lost with all the overtime I've done!  So now I need to catch up!
Day 98: Tuesday, April 8th, 2014- After a nice walk I spent my evening with a yummy meal from Taco Bell, and some good times on Netflix!

Day 99: Wednesday, April 9th, 2014- My roommate is amazing, and inspires me to be more active. She decided to clean up our front yard so we didn't have to stoop down to get through... doesn't it look good!
Day 100: Thursday, April 10th, 2014-Facebook let me know that it is National Siblings day so I had to post one of my favorite pictures of my sister and I.  I LOVE MY POOP POOP!
Day 101: Friday, April 11th, 2014- Today I worked a double so when I finally did get home I collapsed and didn't feel like taking another picture of my bed, AND it is one of my best friends birthday, so I thought I would post one of my favorite! Happy Birthday ELLA!!!!!
Day 102: Saturday, April 12th, 2014-I needed a really good motivational picture to help me get through the last workday of my week... and this one did it!

Day 103: Sunday, April 13th, 2014- I have the best visiting teacher!  Look what she brought me.  Well Aubrey enjoyed it (since I am not having any dessert for the month of April.) Thank you!
Day 104: Monday, April 14th, 2014- Did I not say my roommate is amazing.  She went crabbing and made us a lovely dinner!  But she scared the poop out of me by bringing live crabs into our apartment!

Day 105: Tuesday, April 15th, 2014- All the work and overtime finally caught up with me. My head and chest were on fire and my body felt like I had tried boxing and lost... I hurt everywhere. To feel better, my roommate, her brother, and I watched Disney movies all day! I felt horrible but I was happy.
Day 106: Wednesday, April 16th, 2014- With friends like these, who needs enemies =). My friend know I have a slight fear of snails, and for some reason they occasionally like to make fun of me. Naomi Potter made me this gem, and left it on my facebook wall. Love you too Potter!
Day 107: Thursday, April 17th, 2014- Naomi started a trend, and I received quite a few pictures of snails that were way worse than her drawing because they were real, and they were making me vomit, so I found this little guy to send a message. =)
Day 108: Friday, April 18th, 2014- Another day for a double so it was ear plugs and face mask to the rescue. Sadly, no fun pictures.  (It is one of my best friends birthday and I really wanted to post a picture of us as kids because I think that would be fun, but none are scanned and ready to go! I love you Missy Mae and I hope you and Dannie had a lovely birthday together!)
Day 109: Saturday, April 19th, 2014- I got to go to my friend Aubrey's family Easter dinner after work and I am so grateful to have a holiday to celebrate how much our Savior loves us and all he has done and continues to do for us.

Day 110: Sunday, April 20th, 2014- Easter Sunday, the best day ever to celebrate life, and everything we love! Thank you will never be enough, but because He lives, we get to live again!
Day 111: Monday, April 21st, 2014- Happy 55th Birthday to the best Dad ever! I am so grateful I get to live close to him and adventure with him and Mom! Love you!

Day 112: Tuesday, April 22nd, 2014- Dad, Sarah Dawn, and I went and saw the new Captain America, and IT WAS AWESOME!!! Man I love superhero/comic book movies, they make me so happy!
Day 113: Wednesday, April 23rd,  2014- Boring day, had to go to bed right after work to get enough sleep for the double that started at midnight. Blech! (Also blech to my skin... had to start a new acne ointment...yuck)

Day 114: Thursday, April 24th, 2014- Aubrey and I went out to dinner and she was driving me home so I could crash for the night (did another double shift) and then this yellow truck cut us off...and we were angry... until we realized their washing machine was trying to talk to us.  Then it became the funniest thing we had seen in ages.  =)
Day 115: Friday, April 25th, 2014- I am not quite sure what I did to my left wrist but it has been killing me the past few days, so I have been alternating ice and heat to try and bring it back to normal.  I just wonder what the poop I did?!?!?!

Day 116: Saturday, April 26th, 2014- I didn't have anything planned for my Saturday so I cleaned up and tried to organize my mess of a room. I have not finished but I have made some headway, and my room is starting to look like my space!

Day 117: Sunday, April 27th, 2014- I must have worn myself out with my week at work, because I basically slept the day away and this is how my hair looked.  I guess I am a really restless and active sleeper. That will teach me to not set an alarm because church is at 1pm. Yeesh!

I need to do better with keeping myself caught up with posting... it takes way too much time to review all the pictures I have taken, and remember what was exciting or different about my day.

Well... until the next week! (fingers crossed)


Monday, April 14, 2014

March challenge...April challenge

Well, I had been doing amazingly well with my monthly goals... I knew one of them would be really difficult. So it was with March. I had started and have nearly completed the 30 day squat challenge. I blame myself, a quick vacation, and hurting my back for some of the reasons for not completing it.  I am really glad that I started the challenge, I see a difference in my legs, and have been able to find quick ways to exercise with my co-workers at work.  I will finish, and it will be in April... finishing late is better than not finishing at all!

On a positive note, my April goal is to not eat desserts or sweets, and I have to say so far I have been successful in dodging the sweets! I have also been doing diet sodas, and not full sweet sodas. I have seen a difference in my waist and in my face. I won't weigh myself till the end of the month, but I think there will be quite a difference!

Yay for monthly goals, and for small accomplishments!

And April begins!

Day 91: Tuesday, April 1st, 2014- Started my new 30 day challenge, and this months is no sweets April.  I won't be having any sweets or desserts, so I started it off by trying to drink nothing but water!
Day 92: Wednesday, April 2nd, 2014- My lazy butt finally unpacked from our quick vacation last week.
Day 93: Thursday, April 3rd, 2014-My wallet with all its contents were found! Nothing had been taken and no new charges were added to my accounts! I love nice people!
Day 94: Friday, April 4th, 2014- This month has loads of overtime, and this is the first shift I volunteered for! I worked overtime from Midnight to 7am, and then worked my normal shift from 7am to 4pm. Made for a very long day! (It got pretty chilly at night so I had to use a little heater on my chilled feet)
Day 95: Saturday, April 5th, 2014- My parents moved out of their old home and into their new home and a bunch of us helped. My roommate Sarah-Dawn volunteered to take my moms scooter to the new house.  Aubrey had to document the 2 block journey.
Day 96: Sunday, April 6th, 2014- I had to work this Sunday as part of a trade that was set up with a co-worker. But another co-worker called in sick so I got to do a double, an unexpected double, I was unprepared and pretty whiny that I had to stay indoors on such a beautiful day. (And I didn't get to listen to conference... which upset me as well.)
Day 97: Monday, April 7th, 2014- Aubrey and I decided to go see Noah, and it was... different. I had no idea that Stone transformers helped Noah build the arc.. or that Noah thought he had to end the human race. (Sorry for the random spoilers for those who haven't seen it yet and had planned to)
More updates to come... quicker than previous updates! =)


End of March (catch up part 1)

I don't know how on earth I have so many brain farts and forget to post the pictures. But here is the end of March.  March was a really fun month, and I can't wait to see all that I can do in April!

Day 85: Wednesday March 26th, 2014- I had to take a picture of our ever evolving bathroom.  It is a horrible color with an equally horrible floor and shower, so we just decided to make it look as tacky as possible. Well my friend Lisa Harris gave me her game of hungry hungry hippos and said that should go in the bathroom, so I put it up, and now have to find a way to get the beer lights to fit in there.

Day 86: Thursday, March 27th, 2014- Road trip! Lisa Harris, Aubrey Barker and I headed to Utah to help her start her new adventure in Utah. After making it through the pass we stopped at Boomtown, and I won $5.25. I let myself play $2, and at my last 20 cents I won!  It was kind of awesome and I stopped while I was ahead. =)

Day 87: Friday, March 28th, 2014- I found the best sign ever for the laundry room at my apartment. I love it and had to have it!

Day 88: Saturday, March 29th, 2014- Had a great day out with the ladies, and laughed the whole day! But I still can't figure out why Lisa Despain wanted inside a plastic bag.

Day 89: Sunday, March 30th, 2014- Our short adventure was over so quickly.  The flight was even quick. I wish it had been a bit longer. Love seeing friends and being in different locations.

Day 90: Monday, March 31st, 2014- I'm not sure quite what I did, but my lower back was very unhappy and I couldn't stand up straight when I woke up in the morning, so I brought my heating pad with me to work, so that I could work.
More catching up coming soon!


Good People!

The past few weeks two little events have stuck out in my mind showing the goodness of people; and what with the news being riddled with negative examples of humanity, I feel like sharing.

Example #1

On April 2nd I lost my wallet and didn't realize it until I got home from work at the end of the day.  The last place I remember using it was in the morning when I went to McDonalds to get my breakfast burrito.  I called the McDonalds, but I called it after 6pm (and the close at 6pm) so I didn't think there was much of a chance of anyone picking up; but they did, and they had placed a wallet that matched my description in their safe.  The next morning I went in, and the manager, who recognized me (I guess I get the breakfast burrito quite a bit) ran back to the safe and retrieved my wallet for me.  She let me know that one of the homeless men who frequents the McDonalds saw the wallet and without looking at it said that he knew it was mine and said I would be back for it. 

I am so grateful that he knows me from our morning hellos, and also embarrassed that I am a regular at my neighborhood Mcdonalds. =)

Example #2

On April 5th my parents moved out of their current house into their new house. I asked a few of my friends to come help if they could, because I wasn't sure how many people were going to be there to help.  Once there Dad and I took a truck load of stuff to the new house and when we got back there was literally no where for us to park. There were trucks and SUV's all over. There were at least 10 men from church and 10 guys that are friends of friends of my dads. It was incredible!  Some clean cut guys working side by side with men who are tattooed and a little rough looking. It honestly was a great example of real charity.  They had cleared out the old house in an hour and a half! It was mind blowing. 

I am so grateful for good people, and for good examples.  Thank you for everyone who shows me what it means to be a good person, and thank you for helping me see that I can continually get better and help those around me!

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

March has flown by!

Wow I just seem to be doing worse and worse with posting, so this one is a big catch up... almost the whole month of March
Day 68: Sunday March 9, 2014- I just realized that my temple recommend expired at the end of February, so I went and got an interview with the Bishop and got my new one. Now I just need to see a member of the Stake Presidency.  It feels really strange not being able to just go to the temple when I want.  It is also strange how fast 2 years can pass.

Day 69: Monday March 10, 2014- Yay for a day off so I can catch up with laundry!

Day 70: Tuesday March 11, 2014- My family and Aubrey came over for dinner. Made way too much food, and have loads of leftovers!

Day 71: Wednesday March 12, 2014- Went to Sushi with Katy and Aubrey, looked up the menu beforehand... really want to try some APPERTIZERs.
Day 72: Thursday March 13, 2014- My co-worker Marissa and her daughter Thea joined me at Claimjumpers for a giant piece of chocolate cake... and some other non cake food. Delicious!

Day 73: Friday March 14, 2014- Guess what I found on Hulu... OUTNUMBERED! I really need to get caught up, I have only seen the first two seasons.

Day 74: Saturday March 15, 2014- Aubrey and I went to Lisa's to watch her sort and pack. It was actually a really fun night. I had to take pictures of two letters she got when she was student teaching.  Kids are crazy and kind of adorable!

Day 75: Sunday March 16, 2014- Had a crazy bout of vertigo for the first time in my life. Lucille from arrested development is hilarious, but vertigo and dizziness is NOT!

Day 76: Monday March 17, 2014- Went to my first physical in 8 years! About frickin time. Everything is good, and the lab work came back normal.  But I really shouldn't take that long till the next one.

Day 77: Tuesday March 18, 2014- Aubrey put her ice cream in the freezer so she could tell our neighbor about his barking dog. When she got back she was annoyed and needed her ice cream... this is what her ice cream looked like.   

Day 78: Wednesday March 19, 2014-I got yummy baby cupcakes for Marissa, Missy, and I. They were well needed, we had a grouchy day at work.

Day 79: Thursday March 19, 2014- My car doesn't like me right now. I get up to get to work this morning and this light is on!  I had to look it up and it is the low tire pressure light. I had my dad check all the tire pressures and they were fine.  This light is still on, and I think it just wants to drive me bonkers. 

Day 80: Friday March 21, 2014- Who wore her pajama jeans to work today? This girl did! 

Day 81: Saturday March 22, 2014- Got off work early so I could help friends move a piano, but they ended up postponing the journey, so instead I got to take a nap in my favorite soft shirt! Wonderful way to waste a Saturday afternoon.

Day 82: Sunday March 23, 2014- I finally remembered to pack up the books I borrowed from Lisa, and brought them with me when I went to church. Sadly Lisa wasn't at church; I will have to get them to her soon.
Day 83: Monday March 24, 2014- I so don't have a green thumb, so I normally kill of plants by either watering too much or forgetting to water; but so far my little bamboo Seamus is doing so well. I noticed new little leaves growing when I watered him!
Day 84: Tuesday March 25, 2014- Oh man I wanted to be a lazy bum, but my amazing roommate Sarah Dawn asked if I wanted to join her when she did her Julian Michaels video. I am really glad I did... I am out of shape, but it felt great to work out. 

 Let's hope I don't take so long to post next week! I hope everyone is having a wonderful spring so far, take some wonderful pictures, and make some great memories!